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Hazel

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I'm fun and once u get too know me i'm outgoing until u piss me off...then im psychotic and bipolar as hell... I'm workin on that tho... different, find out, but i am shy at first then once you get to know me i'm easy to talk to, but still a little difficult, i am a very good listener... Just ask if u want too know more... For some reason I have a habit of pushing people away. Maybe it's my past. There is so much people do not know about me. Its hard for me to open up to people. I hate it. Its crazy cause I can talk to anyone but to actually open up it's hard. I dont like to let people in. I feel like if I do I will chase people away. It's hard for me to be myself. Some people know everything about me and I love them to death. But they are not here for me to confide in. And I hate it. I just miss my friends and I feel alone. There is so much my family doesn't even know about me. I just cant open up. I have alot of things in my past that I regret and at the same time I am happy that I went through all of it. At times I question if I would take any of it back, but it was all a learning experience for me. I dont know I just wish I could let it all out with out people being critical about the things I have done or how my life use to be. I am not perfect by any means and I dont claim to be I am only human. My story is like one you've never read Nor will I speak of my terrifying and somewhat self indulgent past There are things in my past that I wish I could regret But I dont, I cherish those memories whole heartedly It's the parts of my past that make who I am today And without going through the pain I can honestly say I would not be here today My past is what makes me who I am However it doesn't define me as a person As who I am today I can never regret anything that once made me smile or laugh That brought so much joy to my life, to just take it all away with a single step And yet so much sadness and so much hurt